blog #23 the girl of my dreams?

someONE, who has been so despo, reading my blog till she wants another update of my.. So here's one.. First of all, i've no idea on what to come up with and she inspired me to talk bout my dream girl.. Well i don't really have one yet but there's one i'm hitting on right now.. And by this, i gonna have to talk bout my embarrassment moment :x And so here goes..

She's a year and a month younger than me.. I started taking her out together on a date alone after knowing her for just for 4 days.. It was the third time i've seen her and i started falling for her.. And during that date, some part of me force to ask her to be my girl.. She was like "whoaa".. And the reaction like that i thought the answer was definitely a no.. and so it was.. She asked "don't you think it was too fast?".. But i knew i was in love.. I asked for trust.. And so it was a task to earn it..

She was chosen to be in the National Service.. She head back to the camp just after our 1st date.. it's been 2 weeks now.. I'm still missing her..

blog #22

its been months since i've update my blog.. hmm.. well, not sure what to write.. so far my life is just as miserable as being dumped -.-".. it shows that i'm not good enough, or perhaps not ready.. it hurts even if its only a short period of time being together.. what i've learn is life is still as cruel as when it comes to loving a person.. sorry to say this but that's how the way i thought.. but maybe You could prove me wrong and that's possible..

whatever i did, i did it for you.. but now whatever i've done, made me a silly person.. but still been cursed by love..

Choices..

We do not live by fate.. it matters only what we do.. It's not fate that brought us together but what we choose.. We all have a choice.. We all can change, no matter how many times if you only believe.. Timing is also everything.. Action only works when the time is right.. It's not fate.. It's what we do.. Almost nothing is impossible..

Don't face the truth of the future if you're not happy with it.. Change it then.. We only got one life time so don't waste the chance..

We all people have different interest, and knowledge, but we're all human and we're the same.. We could have the same interest or knowledge..

Just do better in everything.. Best isn't necessary but better is..

Don't compare with people.. Compare to yourself.. That gives improvement..

Whenever i lost my girlfriends, it's hard for me to forget the moment..

Whenever i lost my girlfriends, it's hard for me to forget the moment where we used to have fun.. if i'm lucky, it wouldn't last for several months.. perhaps a year.. Wondering what she's doing everyday or whether if there's someone hitting on her.. It's sad to know that she doesn't care bout anything anymore.. yea, women, who are just deceiver xD. kidding.. Anyway, that's what i used to do.. Moving on..

Failure

Once again, hoping too much doesn't work at all.. Never.. I thought i could continue my love stories again.. But while expecting too much, I din have the chance to do it, probably not yet.. I'm confused of making decision cuz i don't know what to do..

Being better isn't perfect.. Being yourself is.. And that's the best of being perfect.. =D

Everything fails me.. At least that's how i felt.. Maybe i'm not too good.. Maybe i'm not the one.. I wouldn't know cuz you never tell me.. I don't know how to give up either.. Maybe if you could have tell me everything in just one way, we could decide the best for us..

Agreed that two weeks really changes everything, And in a way it makes me felt more for you.. And the person like me for i know, doesn't know how to forget everything.. Might take some time.. And i guess we seriously need to take a rest now and let both of us continue..

LOLx

Lolx.. I actually thought i could face her.. Be myself or who i am in front of her.. But all i did was looking down, having difficult breathing and not even a dare to say a word.. I always thought that I rather be your friend than losing you in my life, i was wrong.. I rather forget you than torturing myself for the rest of my life..

Probably you'll think, why post this on a blog when I do not care about her anymore.. It's because this blog is what i created for.. And now its the end..

Nothing Is Impossible..

Boy:How can a girl who said that she loves me more than a thousand times end up saying she has no feelings towards me suddenly?

Girl:Cause nothing is impossible..

Boy:But i seriously need you..

Girl:Enough hopes.. There's no us in the future anymore.. it's fate..

Boy:Nothing is impossible..