People with their lifes..

Well, I would know what life is about, yet perhaps.. But what really matters here is they're living in it.. Who we are now? By judging who we are, is based on what we did in the past.. Through my experience, living with the people we know gives us the memories bout the past.. Its also about where you from.. And about strong feelings you had on each people.. I could say studies and education doesn't give life or memories but the resources to live our life.. And that it can't be judge.. I've been wondering, sooner or later we all gonna be gone.. Why bother living in the world where u got to be emotional,with feelings and memories, that will be sure to fade away.. I wouldn't say god created us but the way we are form.. If god created us, what would god get from us living? Watching how our life style is? probably.. To keep them company, as most of us have to question about and deny the existence of god? By the way, i'm a free thinker and it doesn't mean that whether i believe it or not.. But if there's a god, then let the god itself to show me, a sign.. Maybe we're form by science.. I wouldn't know.. But i guess what really matters about life to people is about themselves and about them living in it.. Person with its own..

Decision?

I notice i've made quite a number of mistake making choices, my choices.. Most of them just leads to failure.. Maybe that's fate, but who knows.. If i got choices, i wouldn't know which to pick.. The thing is now, If i love her, it doesn't mean that i have to find her everyday right?.. hmm.. What's the point, i won't get any answer most of the time anyway.. For once i'm being a fren, it really hurts alot.. But i wouldn't wanna find trouble either.. this could be my only chance.. Hope i could really see some results.. You know what?? maybe i should just give it some time.. Its not like i'm seriously gonna lose her completely.. We're still living under the same sky, and i'm happy with that.. I can't fail my finals.. Yet again i wouldn't wanna disappoint everyone.. Degree or acca after final? lol.. Should i really plan this now as it is still far away? Taylor or Sunway? seriously.. Iphone or drumset? shits.. So far i guess i'm doing great, except for losing someone that matters, but anyway, moving on.. I don't feel left behind anymore..

Felt abandon..

Was it worth everything? it depends if everything will recover in future.. But what if it doesn't? Then i shouldn't have taken this too serious.. Had something that's so special and i lost it.. Promised that i'll never lose it, lost it cause i'm not accepted anymore.. Wasn't the promise but the feelings.. I couldn't keep this pain any longer.. I was weak to keep this relationship strong.. It's the best thing that's ever happen to me, how could i afford to give up.. People please, don't tell me that i should if you don't really understand me.. Anyway, Was it not enough to give it some time? I'm complaining, yes, cause i got trouble of letting it go.. I want it to be with me, so, i could be the top of the whole.. With it, i never have to be alone.. And with it, i just wanna be happy.. I'm getting crazy.. I had no idea what else i could do beside looking for it every week during weekends, and staring at the entrance where i'm usually welcome with loves..

I miss her..

Why when everything is just as normal as it seems, and someday at the end it has to be ruined.. I tried having fun, on my own.. I miss the words i used to hear,the laughter,the touch.. Pity me not because my heart's a slow learner, pity me because i have a heart.. Blame me not because i annoyed you, blame me because i cared for you and i still do.. Giving up on you is the day i lose everything..